So much of grief is learning how to integrate our shadow selves into the rest of us.
As the kids say, some folks will just have to stay mad.
"I have to unconditionally surrender to the care and support of those around me. I have to be willing to let my heart be nourished just as much as my body."
"I once felt guilty because a friend spent thirty minutes looking for parking near the cafe I chose to meet them at."
"As a patient in a larger body, I feel it's important that we are on the same page regarding my treatment."
"‘You three get two scoops of ice cream.’ She then looked at me and said, ‘You’ll get a kiddie scoop.’”
"I avoided those relationships where love was free and easy. Because it didn't feel 'earned,' so I didn't feel worthy."
I’m breathless now, looking back at all the ways you would not back down from survival.
Eating disorders are built on a house of lies, but if it's the only house you've ever lived in, you just won't see it that way.
I used my proximity to body positive spaces to disregard the very idea that I needed help — and I'm paying the price physically, mentally, and emotionally now.